Wednesday, January 23, 2008

Blasphemous Rumor

There is a song by Depeche Mode called Blasphemous Rumor which seems to sum up what I am feeling about now.

I don't want to start any blasphemous rumors
But I think that God has a sick sense of humor
And when I die
I expect to find him laughing

I just want the whole thing to stop. I am tired of being positive and upbeat. I am tired of "just trust[ing] in God." I am tired of it seeming as if nothing is going to ever work out. I get afraid of when things do work that suddenly something is going to go wrong.

Nick says that I will have a lot of sermon illustrations. I know he is trying to cheer me up, but I am sick of being a sermon illustration.

Why can't something go right for a change?

The former senior pastor called. He still has a job. I try to get over the whole thing but I just get so pissed off at times.

I wish Nick were here.


Anonymous said...

As best I can, I'll send a hug from here.

Ur-spo said...

I believe God has quite the sense of humor. 'want to make the gods laugh? tell them your plans'
as His logic is no way human logic, it is beyond comprehension or human reasoning.