I have been thinking about my last post and why it has brought me down almost all day: I think it has something to do with being isolated. Usually, I can go along doing what I am doing but when I run into someone from my "past life" it reminds me how alone I am in this life. Now this is not to say that Nick has abandoned me, not by a long shot. But still, I don't feel like I am part of the Episcopal tribe. Maybe I am not allowing myself to be part of this new tribe. I don't know. I just don't feel like I fit in.
I wish I could be part, but I always feel like I am an outsider. It is like I am trying to find where I fit in this group.