Monday, November 10, 2008

The (Pity) Party Continues

Another fun day at the ol' Bux.

We had the regional director show up. Now, I don't know if I said anything about this woman before, but she drives me nuts. I really want her job so I can do all kinds of bad management things and make lots of money.

Well, she was here today and just added to my frustration. I was continuing to be frustrated by the past weekend and was not really happy to be doing a brain dead job; and then the manager shows up and immediately starts to complain. No compliment on getting a five-star rating. Nope, just how bad we were for having the wrong trays under the pastries. I really hate my job. I need to find another job. I will be posting my resume online just like Nick did. Hopefully between the two of us we can find something to sustain us and get us out of here. I am just need to find something that doesn't bore me silly!

I feel like all that I have been doing lately is complaining. But the positive things in life seem to be so far apart. It is hard to recharge when there is nothing to look forward to.

Our schedules this week are almost diametrically opposed. If I wouldn't have gotten off early today, I would not have seen Nick except for a few moments in the morning.

This feeling is reminding me of the way I felt when I was at my church up north. I was getting to the end of my rope and I didn't know any other way out. Again, I feel like I am at the end of my rope. I hate my job. I feel like I am not giving my congregation the attention that they deserve.

The economy is bottoming out. And as it goes down, I see my limited opportunities diminish. The only metaphor I can say is it feels like I am gasping for air and just can't breath. Everything that makes life enjoyable seems to be going away.

3 comments: said...

OK - I hear you. Now change your base. Start feeling gratitude for what you have. You have someone who cares about you and shares your life. You have blog readers who depend on you and are pulling for you. There is a little lady who never leaves her house. She writes under the name of Raven and her blog is the View from Ravens Nest. She is writing something called Gratitude Posts each day this week.

Always Remember That You Are Loved. That is what is important. Divine Love Always Has Met and Always Will Meet Every Human Need. He/She will help you through this also. j

Ur-spo said...

i am sad your life is miserable so.

Lemuel said...

HUGS to you, Ben! I wish there was something I could do to help.

As for a small detail in your post, I just want it stated for the record to your regional director that, as a customer, there is one thing that I cannot abide! and that is having the wrong tray under the pastries! When I see that, it just simply drives me out of the store immediately. [dripping with utter sarcasm, if you did not hear it.]

and just for "just for", here's another hug to you and Nick!