Maybe I just like to worry about things, I don't know.
This weekend we have the annual meeting at church. I have to write a report. I want to be real with the people, but I also don't want to beat them over the head. I am not sure where I want to go with the report.
The big problem is that over the past year, no a whole lot has changed. We changed the worship times, but we have not gained any more people. We have lost some people over the past year, but that seems to have stopped. We have an organist that plays twice a month, but she will be quitting soon.
We are $8000 under budget as of right now, which means asking for more money is out of the question. But, even with the BUX job, Nick and I were still strapped for money. Now that I am not working a second job, the money situation is bound to become worse.
I don't want to leave the church that I am currently at, but they seem to be content with the "private club" feel and do not seem to want to reach out to the community. I would help with reaching out, but until recently, I have been working. It feels like quite the catch-22: I have to work a second job to keep at the church, but working a second job makes working the church job almost impossible.
I want to get the people fired up to reach out, but I don't want to beat them down because they have been beaten down before.
It feels so "rock and a hard place." I guess it is a good thing that I am not working so that I can have some time to process this whole thing.