Lots of things have been going through my head over the past week or so. Being a clergy person in this world is not easy. There are no quick answers. There are no easy solutions
I get so frustrated with people who call themselves "Christians" yet act in a manner that I find totally at odds with what I think "Christian" should be. I do not think "Christian" has anything to do with hatred or attacking others. I do think "Christians" are to be about loving others.
I have been asked how I would respond to people who are of the Republican bent. If they are not about social justice, I find it difficult. Am I supposed to say that being selfish is ok? Am I supposed to tell people that we are not to care for the widows and orphans? Am I supposed to tell people that we are not to welcome the stranger? I cannot see how one can be Christian and not do these things. However, there is a large group of people who feel that one cannot be Christian and be about these social justice issues. Am I supposed to tell these people that what they believe is ok, just so they will keep contributing to the church. I can't do that with a clear conscience.
I also get frustrated when people think that those who would blow up consulates, or abortion clinics, or pretty much anything else is the proper way to spread the love of God or Allah, or whatever you choose to call a divine deity. And then people assume that all "Christians" think this way and respond to me in sometimes rude and cruel ways.
Then there is the whole thing of trying to find a call at a church. Wondering if it will ever happen and wondering if it is worth the effort. Frankly, I am tired of the effort. I keep saying that I can't go on, but I keep finding some way to do it. Now, I am getting to the end of my rope.
Oh, and we have to move again by the end of October. Where? Who knows.