I have decided that one of the worst thing are cognitive distortions. My present one is that the situation will NEVER get any better. Now, I know that to use a word like "Never" is the hallmark of a cognitive distortion. I also know that distortions live on things like, "Always" "Never," and "The Worst."
And although I know this to be the case, and I know that what I am feeling is more than likely a cognitive distortion, I still feel stuck in the distortion. I look at my situation and say that it is never going to get any better. It is difficult to drum up the energy to do anything when deep in your core you know that whatever you do will be futile.
Right now, my cognition is telling me that this is never going to change. That no matter what I do, I am going to be stuck. This is a cognitive distortion, but it has taken hold and damned if it is going to let go. I know on an intellectual level that things have to change, but I do not believe it.
And between lack of job, excessive heat. and creeping depression, I don't even want to get out of bed in the morning.