Well, I am home alone on a Sunday afternoon. This is kind of a rarity for me. Usually, I am accompanying Nick as we travel up to his congregation and then back home afterward. I was feeling tired and decided to stay home.
Tired is feeling that I seem to be getting too used to. We have lost one-third of the work staff at BUX, and this happened right before Christmas. We now have four people to staff the place, 13 hours per day, seven days per week. I had been trying to get LESS hours but now I am back up to 40 hours per week. We also do not have a learning coach. This was supposed to be remedied back in August. Now, we will have to train two people and we have a Lead Barista who likes the limelight. Last time something like this happened, we ended up doing the training while the Lead got the extra pay for doing the training. THIS WILL NOT HAPPEN AGAIN.
I do know from a credible source the the Lead has been getting more sex in the past three weeks than he has had in his whole life. I hope this will make the Lead easier to work with. I do know that he has been in a better mood and less ego-centric. That is a good thing.
Nick and I have started to take down the Christmas decorations. I really don't feel like Christmas even happened. Taking down the decorations is sad, but leaving them up is also rather sad. Having them up reminds me that Christmas was a bust, but taking them down feels like we haven't even celebrated.
I am not sure how long I can keep going at this pace. I already see things I do not like in myself. I find myself getting snappy with my coworkers. I had trouble focusing during church this morning. I hate it when I cannot keep track of what has been happening. I should be able to do a church service with my eyes closed, but now twice within the past two weeks I just drew a complete blank. (How embarrassing!)
I need to get some things done here. I need to finish Nick's Christmas present. I told him that I would rather give him his present late as opposed to giving him a piece of crap. (Unless I were to give him a Mr. Hankie!) So I have some things I need to do.
I am also a bit frustrated. My computer is about to die. I have had it for almost 10 years. I need it (well, I guess I don't NEED it, but it makes my life a whole lot easier!) for sermon writing. I cannot even afford a netbook. I also know that my congregation could not afford to buy me a computer.
I so hope a full-time call comes through soon. I am not sure how long I can keep going.