All kinds of emotions happening right now. I am happy to be over with this job. I am frustrated that the time isn't going faster. I am scared about the future.
At work, my managers are pretty much avoiding me. The one who yelled at me because I wasn't doing her job has yet to even acknowledge that she did anything wrong. Oh well. The healer in me wants to try to help the system heal, the human in me just can't do it. I have to realize that!
I still have a crappy work schedule this week. I work 1-7:30 today, 8:30-5 tomorrow and Friday, and then 5:30 am - 10 am on Saturday. I am not even going to talk about next week. Next week they have thrown in the dreaded off at 7:30 pm and in at 5:30 am. Yes, I love this job.
My biggest problem is that I just keep second guessing myself. "Am I being a baby?" "Could I stick this out?" "Am I a quitter?" I know this is the best thing to do, but the old tapes keep playing. And having been raised Roman Catholic, those tapes have gotten transferred to MP3 and are on continuous loop!