Tuesday, August 10, 2010

Pity Party, Read at your own peril.

Truly hating life right now.  I have consistently been feeling crappy over the past week or so.  (I guess that would be since coming back from vacation.)

I know that what I am feeling is irrational, and logically, I can tell myself that what I am feeling is not founded in the reality of life.  But I still feel it.  I feel like I constantly have to be on guard for the next person waiting to ambush me.  I need to be prepared for the next attack.  Again, I know this is irrational, but it is what it is.  And truthfully, I hate it.

Nick has been great about the whole thing.  He has been patient.  But this has got to be as old for him as it is for me.


Cubby said...

Post-vacation stress disorder. We all suffer from it occasionally. When I get it I recognize it and act to find something to occupy my mind for a bit. I'm afraid to tell you what I do sometimes because it's so ultra-dorky, but it works for me.

I randomly pick a topic I know nothing about and research it. I gather enough material to write a fairly decent report (think college term paper). I don't actually write a report. I stop at the research. That's the fun part anyway. Doing this accomplishes what I need at the time. It "reboots" my brain and gets me back into work mode.

If your brain works like mine (if you're a left-side brain person) then you might want to try it.

Lemuel said...

Even though the reasons for the feelings are illogical when one thinks them through, the feelings still are real. Your ability to recognize that is a good start to overcoming those feelings. Other people do not seem to be able to recognize that the source of the feelings is illogical.
Sending my best wishes that you will soon find peace with it all and also sending a big hug to Nick for being the guy he is.

Ur-spo said...

I am glad you have Nick for comfort.