Monday, July 14, 2008
I am going to see a debt counselor tomorrow. I am a bit apprehensive about the whole situation. I know I should not be. I know they are going to try to work with me. But still, I have this image of the counselor just looking at me and saying, "You are a bad boy."
The swirl of emotion surrounding this whole thing is just incredible. I feel shame, guilt, and anger. This is a situation in which I never thought I would find myself. I was of the generation that was lead to believe that all you had to do was go to college and you would end up, if not rich, at least comfortable.
Now, here I sit with two Masters Degrees and the only thing I can brag about is some people wait for me to be at work to get their Caramel Macchiato 'cause they say I make the best. I guess that is something to be excited about, but I didn't spend over $30,000 for that honor.
And I am angry because a large chunk of the situation I am in has to do with my being gay and the world's stupidity about being gay. I am not going to rehash it 'cause if you have read any of my posts, you know most of the story.
So, hopefully, I will find a way to get things paid off and get the creditors to stop calling me. I sure hope it all goes well.