Well, I have now had about 4 hours to process this stuff, and I am still upset.
I am upset by all the misinformation that is flowing around in the world.. How even though the people of this congregation liked me as a person, I had to be bad because I was gay. Yes, I am gay so I must not like children. Or I must like children too much. All of the bile that so-called Christians put out there. Sorry folks, I am not into children. But if Glen Beck says it, then it must be so.
I keep trying to think of what I can do instead of this clergy thing. It really is a very difficult vocation. Everyone thinks they can do it better, but no one wants to. All they want to do is tell you how you are doing it wrongly.
I really just want to be in a church where we can have a great time living in a really incredible world we have been given. All the drama is just really over-rated.
But since I started doing the church thing, it has just seemed to be one crisis after another. I feel like I am becoming too good at dealing with crisis. I also have to wonder if I don't create the crises.
Probably will be more processing later today. If you all (the five who read this!) get sick of it, I understand.