This whole thing with the Former Secretary (FS) is getting crazy! I keep tying to find ways to not get snagged into all the systems stuff, but find it difficult. I know that people are rebelling because I am holding boundaries where there were previously none. This is not going over well with the FS so she is getting people to do her bidding.
I just feel entirely too thin-skinned to be doing this. I know I just need to stand up to the whole thing and call it out, but I am too wimpy for that. I just want to go away and do something involving no other people except Nick. I just want to be left alone. I am tired. I am jumping at shadows. I am amazed at how mean "Good People" can be.
Then I have to ask how am I contributing to the system? How am I being reactive? How is my reactivity contributing to the general anxiety of the system? Am I doing more harm than good there?