Wednesday, May 05, 2010

The Power of Music

I find it interesting how certain songs can bring up such strong emotions in me. 

There are songs from the Trans-Siberian Orchestra that I cannot listen to with a dry eye.  One song that especially gets me is "Old City Bar."  The song is not a tour de force, but the theme of being home for Christmas runs through it.  One line that gets me is, in refrence to being home on Christmas Eve, "If one could be home, they'd be already there."  I guess I still deal with the feeling of never really being home.  Even when I am at my childhood home, I never feel like I am there.  And expecially at Christmas, it always felt like I was a stranger in the midst of strangers.  I was supposed to be surrounded by friends and family and what I found was that I was surrounded by people I barely knew.  This may also be my attraction to all things Christmas, trying to regain the dreams of home and family that I seem to have missed.

Another song that is getting to me is "Defying Gravity" from Wicked.   I have never seen Wicked but I love the song.  Whenever I hear the song, I want to cheer, pump my fist and simultaneously flip-off the world.  It too can bring tears to my eyes.

I don't know if this is a normal feeling for people/guys/gay guys.  I guess we all have things that happen in our lives.  I just find it interesting how music can bring up these feelings.  I am guessing the emotion would not be as strong without the addition of the music.


Urspo said...

music therapy has been a powerful tool for centuries. Music captures what words alone can not express.

Lemuel said...

Music has always been a powerful force in my life and emotions. Much music brings tears to my eyes and a lump in my throat. My father used to scream at me that I was "too thin skinned", cold Prussian that he was. I did not know then that I should have screamed back, "No, I'm gay."